Thursday, March 31, 2005
while i wait
job interview again yesterday. i didn't get the one at sun jap rest. this time, it was at jurong point. push cart selling christian t-shirts. pretty interesting designs too. kinda hoping for this job although it's really far. but the environment is not bad. not like the jap rest. i don't feel so intimidated there. maybe that's a good thing. not sure.
the badminton coach so nice. he keeps calling now and then to tell me about extra lessons he's planned with the other aunties, asking if me and andrew wanna go down and join them. and i keep telling him cannot cos of timing problems etc. feel bad lah keep turning him down. and i do want to play proper badminton.
saw this thread about clay's glory notes in 2 songs. those notes where he holds for a damn long time and all. one was the note on 'solitaire'. love that song. i timed it yesterday. the note itself (not counting the surrounding notes) was 15 seconds long. not beats, seconds. so he's standing there, blasting away for 15 seconds. omg!!!!! the other song 'don't save it all for christmas day'. i so want to time that one too. omg! lungs of steel.
And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him takes him down
And by himself it’s easy to pretend
He’ll never love again
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He’s playing solitaire
*g*
Sunday, March 27, 2005
dear diary
firstly, MS WEE'S GETTING MARRIED!!!!! she's invited the whole 4/6 to her wedding. can't wait. :D there was this big confusion when i received the email. cos the name was jess. and i thought, how come jess knows about ms wee??? then i remembered. it's the other jess. jessica chua from sac. oh... heehee. blur me.

celebrated sumi's birthday saturday. went to her house for party. it was fun. jasmine, zaidah, duan hui, nga chi and shi yun were there also. great opportunity to catch up and talk. haven't seen each other for so long. nino was so excited. he kept trying to chew my toes. he's got teeth now so it's a bit awkward for him to do that. cute dog. he's a little bigger too. fluffier. i got sumi a book. dog tricks for dummies. i think she loves it. can teach nino all the crazy tricks.
went to her place early cos i had to leave early. on the way there, heard some one practicing music. it sounded like some brass instrument. trumpet or something like that. don't know the names of the instruments. anyway, at sumi's place, only duan hui was there, struggling with the briyani. she says it's too spicy. but it wasn't lah. she just can't take spicy. sumi just loves teasing her about it. we watched "sweet home alabama". really sweet and romantic. that type of feel good, typical love story movie.
zaidah and nga chi arrived half way through the movie. someone got lost. jasmine i think. she arrived way later. that girl was wearing a skirt and nino was hyperacting all over her. poor thing. sumi's mother kept force feeding us. which was a friendly gesture of course. only problem was that we were all full.
i had to leave early cos of easter vigil later. so i left without cutting the cake. sob sob. haiz. but what to do? no choice lah. i heard that the cake was solid chocolate chocolate. and later they had mixed chocolate, strawberry and vanilla ice-cream. but i think sumi had a good day.

moving on. went to st mary's for the easter vigil cos aunty jaynus was getting baptised. omg! st mary's is so cool!!! i mean, it looks different from pics that i've seen in the papers. i think it looks better in the papers. maybe it's just the angle i'm sitting at. :D pic is the crossless crucified jesus. he's looking over to the right. that's the section where the elect were sitting.
the service was supposed to start at 9pm. but parents decided to go early so that we can get good seats. so we were there at like 7.30pm. damn early. sat there for the next 1 1/2 hours. admire the place. lighting was dimmed. ideal to sleep. heehee. the choir was practicing. gosh. the choir was huge! ah-ku said that its a combined choir. they even had their own sound room, and sound proof rooms for the kids. wow. we'll have that in like 20 years time. and the cantors were ... woah!! so confident of themselves.
a bit disappointed during the service of the light. cos we were seated inside, couldn't see what was happening outside. duh. could only see the top of the big fire. disappointed. wanted to see the 'walking on water' thing. but it's ok. the church used tea lights and those clear plastic cups. bit difficult to light and put the tea lights into the cups but it was a good idea.
the genesis reading was impressive. it was a major collaboration between the lectors and the choir. there were 2 lectors. one was narrator. the other was 'god'. kinda like role playing. the piano was playing background accompaniment during the whole reading. then there was the refrain "and it was good", "god saw that it was good", "evening came and morning came, the ____ day". the cantor sang that and congregation responded. the really impressive part was the timing. the music, the cantoring, the reading...everything was perfectly timed. wow!!!! i wonder where they get the music for the psalms from. cos it sounds so good too.

moving on. the baptisms were the highlight. there were 80 to be baptised, according to aunty jaynus. the baptismal font was in the centre. apparently it's shaped and coloured like a tomb to symbolise dying and new life in baptism. it was a full body immersion for the adults. the kids just get water poured on them. the pic is supposed to be aunty jaynus getting baptised. don't know if it's clear enough. my camera's not that powerful. what i found really nice about the thing was that at the end, the choir sang that EC song "all are welcome". so sweet. perfect song to welcome the newly baptised.
let's see, what else...the service itself was normal. loved the songs. oh ya, the litany. i was wondering how the heck they were going to pull off the litany, seeing that there were like a billion names. but what they did was they did the piano accompaniment thing again, and the cantor just recited the names of the saints. he recited a few then he said "all the saints in heaven". then go on to other names etc. love the memorial acclaimation too. they sang the chorus of "we remember". nice. we should do that too. :D
the service ended like 12 plus. then they distributed hot cross buns. all wrapped up nicely too. luckily we managed to grab a cab. cos we disappeared before everyone else. they were having pot luck at the church. but it was too late to stay lah. so took a cab. the driver apparently just fetched someone from another church. he was asking what's happening, how come so late still have service. after fetching us back, he said he's thinking of driving up to st mary's again, sure got business for him. :) don't know if he did or not.
what an experience.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
singing makes you high
next, after singing yesterday, i kinda understand what it means when people say singing is a high unto itself . it's like, you practice until you dream of the song and when you actually perform it and you get it right, it's just ... such a high. *g*
Friday, March 25, 2005
follow up
first, i went with poornima to bookworm media. they're looking for storytellers. but what they didn't tell us is that we'd need to do one man shows at schools, in front of the student assembly and teachers. tell stories, act out...generally act crazy. no way. we didn't go for that interview.
then, we went to international plaza. some agency thing. doing data entry. filled in some employment form and that's it. they said they'd call us.
then, the last place we checked out. Sun japanese restaurant at CHIJMES. doing part time waitressing. omg that place is just so intimidating to me. so high class and swanky restaurant. scary. had interview there. i don't think i'll get it. i screwed up the most basic question "tell me about yourself". i don't remember what i said but i know it was crap. the interviewer didn't help. she was talking with this aussie accent that my nervous mind could barely interpret. plus i have zero experience in the f and b industry. i'm kinda hoping that they won't call me back. i don't think i'm cut out for this kind of work, especially in that kind of environment. i'll probably screw up and get fired.
sigh. cruel crazy beautiful world.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
quick one
pray that i don't screw up.
pray that i don't back out last minute.
pray that i'll get the job.
pray that i can do the job.
details later if i do ok.
Monday, March 21, 2005
in case people are wondering
Thursday, March 17, 2005
i don't remember if i did this before but...

Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
you're listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! You're not quiet because
you're shy or sad, you're usually quiet because
you're thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. You're the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
ow...ow...
sigh. i'm aching all over now. 2 hours of badminton. gosh! and i haven't done proper exercise since december. sigh. the only part of me that feels normal is my left hand. ouch...ouch... sob sob cry cry.
on the other hand... check this out. http://p213.ezboard.com/ftheclayboardfrm11.showMessage?topicID=63712.topic (assuming it works)
so touching. so beautiful. sigh. *g*
Monday, March 14, 2005
Sunday, March 13, 2005
dear diary...
firstly, duan hui came down to the church. she wanted to talk to verena. actually i told her to come down between 9.30 and 9.45. but she got lost. went to that church beside aljunied mrt instead. so she came in during gospel acclaimation. ok. don't think it was too bad an experience for her, coming to the church.
than later, we went to ntu open house. i really enjoyed myself. i decided that i like ntu much better than nus. more friendly i think. better environment. and i actually can go to ntu. there's the new arts dept and they have maths too. but i'll be alone. don't think sumi and duan hui or poh lin will wanna go to ntu. it's the first time i went to ntu. there was a free shuttle from boon lay mrt. good. didn't need to squeeze in the sbs bus.
went for the campus tour. interesting. duan hui was going ga-ga over the residence hall guy, heng kia and the campus guide. that indian/eurasian guy. suddenly she's forgotten completely about her guy. heehee! she was acting so desperate. *rolls eyes* and ya, the guys were kinda cute. i have to admit, i had a good entertainment at her expense. :D
ok. brain's dead now. muahahaha! bye for now.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
dear diary...
i am exhausted but i wanna blog about what happened today. enjoyed myself today. despite the fact that i was out for full 12 hours, running all over singapore.
first, went to nus for their open house. supposed to meet duan hui, poh lin, sumi and sanjna. firstly, duan hui decided that she didn't want to go. ok. she didn't exactly say she was going in the first place. i was the one pestering her. haiz. waste my sms. then poh lin called me and said she's not going either cos she decided that she can find everything out on the net. fine. sumi called and said that sanjna isn't coming either. she herself thinking about not going. by then i was already at redhill. so i begged her please don't abandon me by myself. being my best friend, she came after all. so i walked all over clementi central for almost half an hour before she finally arrived. i finally realised how much the sch people link me and sumi. saw grace coming back from nus. she straight away asked where's sumi. woah. like straight away assume sumi's with me.
ya well, wanted to go for the sc fac talk. we were only 20 minutes late. but already the hall was full to overflowing. btw, we were actually not 20 minutes late. we arrived at nus on time but we got lost and spend time finding our way. went for the fass talk also. bloody useless. nothing we don't know. that crazy presenter, talking so much decorative nonsense. he was like "what can our graduates do? lots and lots. what jobs can they get? lots and lots. how much can they make? lots and lots." the guy loves the us a lot too. the admin talk was useless too. all the jazz about how great nus is, locally and worldwide. we-are-the-best-university-in-the-land-pick-us crap. the dean sounded like he was just regurgitating a speech he memorised. which i'm sure he did. he had a really cheena accent.
wanted to go down sac for the carnival but by the time we were done at nus was already 3 plus. no point rushing down. feel a bit guilty lah. annie so nice, msg me to remind me about it and all. i gave the ticket to feng cai for her birthday present. don't know if she went down. i really considered going down but really really couldn't.
met shi yun at nus. we decided to go watch a movie. she wanted to watch 'howl's moving castle'. apparently kwei recommended it. but i can't stand anime. anyway, in the end,watched 'hitch' at suntec with jeffrey. i tell you, it was worth every cent of my $8.50. sumi was regretting going for 'series of unfortunate events'. that day. so funny. haven't laughed so much for ages and ages. i absolutely love the show. suntec was so so so crowded. lots and lots of people. did i mention that 'hitch' is so funny? i absolutely enjoyed every minute of it. wanna watch it again.
after the movie, had to send sumi back to the mrt cos she's not familiar with the area. so we walked her back to the overhead bridge. she said she can find her way from there. still so crowded. even worst than afternoon. now i know the true meaning of ren shan ren hai. darn. yup, went for dinner with shi yun and jeffrey. jeffrey wanted to treat himself and eat at nydc. but we had no money and he decided not to after seeing the nydc rest. so crowded. something about old people. so we were walking around looking for a place to eat. not fast food. and something within our budget. ended up eating at the food court. after standing around and staring aggressively at the bunch of people taking forever to drink a cup of watermelon juice. after dinner, jeffrey still hungry so he treated us to yami yoghurt. wow. first time anyone treat me. he introduced me to peach flavoured yoghurt. now i decided that i love the flavour. he bought almond and shi yun got natural. but we were sharing around, eating from each other's cups. fun. the almond was so strong.
they were telling me about how bad the choir is. i'm shocked actually. they really sound so attitude problem. even jeffrey was thinking of quitting choir. it's like, the choir sounds like a horrible place to be now. heard that the sops actually just ignore the section leader and just walk in and out of sectionals as and when they like. syf is in may. they say that they're no where ready. i'm surprised that kwei isn't overreacting yet. he drilled us to death for the genting comp. but he doesn't seem to be doing anything for them now. but given their attitude problem... good part, shi yun said that my altos are actually quite good now. proud of them. gossip about how kwei may be gay. heeheehee!
rushed back for church choir. btw, i found out that shi yun sings in holy trinity choir sometimes. anyway, by the time i arrived, it was already like almost 9.15pm. darn late. i really didn't know it would be so late. stupid bus played a role. actually i didn't feel like going. so exhausted. but i said i would show up. so have to. so responsible of me. :D haha. sang like, one song and then choir was over. so fast. hey, at least i showed up. and yes, i do feel a little guilty about being so late.
andrew was telling me they were asking what sacrifices we make for religion (something like that). for me, it's having to rush back from wherever i was to come for choir/church. like today. long time haven't talked to jeffrey and shi yun liao. but still have to come back. both of them were trying to get me to buy the la risonanza 2 tickets from them. i'm already buying from shi yun. sorry jeffrey. asked too late. (i feel like blogging in singlish, with chinese in between. effect of hanging around with shi yun for too long)
right. now i'm really really tired. duan hui's coming down tomorrow. looking forward to that. that gal asked me to take notes for her and write a descriptive essay on the nus open house for her. no way. no way i'll write that. who asked her don't come down herself. *evil laugh* right. forgot something. just now in 'hitch', saw the file will smith was holding. assume it contains names of people in need of date doc. one name was clay aiken. muahaha. yup. he needs one. interesting tidbit. also, i wore my contacts for 12+ hours. not bad. still quite comfortable. my feet hurt, walk too much. my shoulder hurts, bag was too heavy. sigh.
ok. time to stop now. late. tired. need to teach the cantors tomorrow. need to sing tomorrow. need rest. (-_-)
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
The Empty Chair (inspirational story)

"A man's daughter had asked the local pastor to come and pray with her father. When the pastor arrived, he found the man lying in bed with his head propped up on two pillows and an empty chair beside his bed. The pastor assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit.
"I guess you were expecting me," he said.
"No, who are you?"
"I'm the new associate pastor at the local church," the pastor replied. "When I saw the empty chair, I figured you knew I was going to show up."
"Oh yeah, the chair," said the bedridden man. "Would you mind closing the door?'
Puzzled, the pastor shut the door.
"I've never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the the man. "But all of my life I have never known how to pray. At church I would hear the pastor talk about prayer, but it always went right over my head.
"So, I abandoned any attempt at prayer, until one day about four years ago, my best friend said to me,
'Joe, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with God. Here's what I suggest. Sit down on a chair, place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see God in the chair. It's not spooky because He promised, 'I'll be with you always.' 'Then just speak to Him and listen in the same way you're doing with me right now.'"
"So, I've tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day. I'm careful, though. If my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm."
The pastor was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old guy to continue on the journey. Then he prayed with him, and returned to the church.
Two days later, the daughter called to tell the pastor that her father had died that afternoon.
"Did he seem to die in peace?" he asked.
"Yes, when I left the house around two o'clock, he called me over to his bedside, told me one of his corny jokes, and kissed me on the cheek. When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him dead.
"But there was something strange, in fact, beyond strange. Kind of weird."
"What was it?" the pastor asked.
"Well," she said, "apparently, just before Daddy died,
he leaned over and rested his head on a chair beside the bed."
http://www.serenitygiftshop.com/bushcountry/am17e.htm
Monday, March 07, 2005
Saturday, March 05, 2005
so how??
not too sure what i'll do in the U. the C for lit kinda took the ground away. thought i wanted to do that but...maybe maths. i've got till 1 april to decide.
meridian did very well for the pioneer batch. rumour that it's ranked 9. but there's no official ranking anymore so...ya. miss lai seems really happy. she should be. stress us all out like that. she achieved her wishes. haha.
ok. thanks for all the care and concern for me and my results. *muacks* :D
Friday, March 04, 2005
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
to the church people: please be sensitive about it. i'll colour code myself. if i wear something dark, it means that i'm very upset about it so don't even think about asking. other colours mean that i'm ok with the results. you can ask if you want.
next, the newspaper isn't always accurate. or my computer is broken again. i was checking up on community centers. saw the website in the newspaper. and it DOESN'T WORK!!!! pissed off. stupid government. (i hope they don't come and arrest me)
i wonder why some of the pictures i loaded turned up but some didn't despite the fact that they all came from the same source. can't understand it. so i'll just sit back and wait for all of them to slowly vanish one by one ya. *rolls eyes*